I can't believe I am doing this

So....uh....I am going to show you all a bikini progress picture. Yikes!

Now, here's the thing. I went to a bachlorette party this weekend and I knew I was going to wear a swim suit for hot tubbing. So, I went shopping to find one. Everything I found emphasized my love handles. My #1 trouble zone! No matter what I do or how clean I eat they never seem to slim down.

Instead of beating the shit out of myself like always, I thought about it. Really thought about it.

You see, I have scoliosis. My back curves in the middle and in the lower lumbar area. Which makes sense that my weight really shows in those areas. If that makes sense. Ha!

So, when I thought about it, I realized that that is how my scoliosis affects my body. Do I believe that one day I will be happy with my love handle area? Absolutely! Right now, although it still makes me self conscious, I have worked too hard to let that bring me down!

I used to be 175 pounds, possibly heavier! I am in the high 120's right now, all because of hard work and perseverance! I am going to show what I have got. You know what? When I put that suit on, I got compliments and it felt good!

The photo on the left is January of this year and the photo on the right is from March of this year.

Ignore the shitty look on my face. Haha!

When I study this photo a little, I see a difference!

From now on, I will celebrate the fact that my body works and carries me! I can run, walk, and lift thanks to that body! I will be sure to appreciate it more now.

That is the conclusion I came to standing in a dressing room looking at the body I have!